I was humming that Joe Cocker song today, getting the lyric wrong but thinking it was so where Malcolm and I were as a couple right now. Taking it day by day, and working on myself...regaining my sanity....has worked a virtual miracle. And if only I possessed that patience I so admire in so many of my friends. The ability to trust that events will transpire to make everything work out. I do have that ability in small doses that always have capsules of dread and sarcasm embedded in it. Thankfully the fact that love was always with us made the comeback even sweeter.
We were both disappointed in not being able to share our nights together, but the truth is we're both parents of small kids. He understands my need to stay and keep my daughter happy and safe. As he has formed a loving relationship with her as well, it's also a need of his. We'd talked in the past about her staying over with me, but that was a summertime musing. That plan doesn't translate well during school time. So I was prepared to just deal, and so was he, kind of like we always have. However, a miracle occurred and he was offered a new shift, all of a sudden opening up his mornings. He honestly has become a new man since beginning his new shift. I hadn't realized just how unhappy he'd become. But I hear his laughter again, we have meaningful and prolonged conversations again. He's relaxed, and he's not so damn tired all the time. He suddenly has time to DO stuff again, to get his errands completed, to visit his mom when he's rested and awake.
I took time last week to have lunch with a dear girlfriend of mine who recently had surgery, and has been going crazy in her downtime. It was wonderful to see her again, and to talk about everything from the crazy time to the recovery, to everything in between and hear her laugh at me and cry with me. Malcolm really enjoys this girl as well so I was sharing my visit with him on the way home, and I'd let him know that since I was only scheduled part time right now, I'd be willing to travel to see her again. He was quiet for a minute and then finally asked me to come to him. I knew he'd had a wonderful weekend with me, we both had thoroughly enjoyed our time away. But just like my desire has been reignited, so has his, and I knew he was hoping to see me bright and early Monday morning. And I had to work that day. LOL
So we postponed till Tuesday, and what a morning it was. To have such relaxed time with him is amazing. Both of us are rested, not exhausted. We're both in a great mood, and both of us love morning sex. So we cuddled, watched tv, and talked. And we made love 10 ways to tomorrow. LOLOL For Jachin's sake I tried to be quiet, I really did try. I failed miserably, and it made Malcolm laugh no end. He WANTED me to be loud, he WANTED me screaming. I'm not gonna dissect it, but he certainly went the distance to make sure I was cumming pretty frequently, and very loudly. I love being multi orgasmic with him. I love the way he makes me cum, then lets me cum down only the smallest bit, then drives me right back to cumming all over again. It's alot, it makes my teeth chatter, it makes me grip the bedsheets and want to kick. I get to a point where I almost shout "STOP!" because I think I can't take another minute.
We found a new position today that was incredible. Doggie style on the bed, but with my hands on the floor. The angle was breath stealing, and he fucked me so deep his cock would rub over all these sensitive areas that would make me squirt and cum, scream and squirt some more. He'd do that, then pull out and present his glistening cock, liberally coated with my cum to my mouth, and he'd wait for me to catch my breath, open my lips, and then he'd push push push to the back of my throat until he'd feel my throat contracting around him. I love the way his cock fits in my mouth, like it was made just for the shape of mine. It's never work to suck his cock, it's one of my greatest pleasures, and as much as he is the Zen Master of eating pussy, I am his Zen Master of sucking cock. I adore it, therefore I excel at it. We have always made the perfectly complementary oral couple.
I wrote him an email last week, some totally nasty thing where I triggered his fetishes and told him as his sub, I'd fulfill his if he'd learn to let go and fulfill mine. I took today as my opportunity to show my good faith and fulfill his ultimate fetish. Though we do keep our wilder kinks private I will share that I've been reading a series of romance books by Lora Leigh about a genetically altered race of men who's DNA has been spliced with animal DNA to create the perfect warriors. Each man has the sexual characteristics of the animal they were spliced with, and Malcolm and I both laughed over the cat men with their barbs. In fact he laughed so hard he wheezed. However, when we got to the coyote men, ummm, that was a different story altogether. The thought of a man having a cock that could swell and knot me while he filled me with cum for the better half of an hour was an idea that made both of us breathe a little heavier. And Malcolm, the Devil that he is, uses that imagery now to make me cum at his will. We laughed about it tonight while we relived the morning again, him saying he wasn't sure he'd ever survive such a thing in real life. Which led us on a discussion of Klingon sex and reverse barbs, LOLOL. Yep, our conversations are amazing fun again.
I know the best feeling in the whole world, besides the orgasms he gives me, is the feeling that we are resonating together again, vibrating in harmony. He told me once he wasn't sure he could ever give me normal, and he didn't want to make me unhappy. I told him at the time that I didn't think I wanted normal if normal didn't include him. And for real, what about either one of us even begins to approach normal? I know that a life with him will always be adventurous, will always be on the edge, and will always be exactly what I need to be happy. I hope I can make his un-normal life as happy as he makes mine.
As for Jachin, well I know he was disappointed that I couldn't stay and play with him today. Today was busy with an interview. I let him know I wasn't running away from him today, and that I'm sure we'll be able to hang out soon. Malcolm wants me to come back real soon. LOL!
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